Saturday, March 31, 2007

An Overwhelming Fear

I’m starting to get nervous that it’s coming back. I’ve come so far since everything took a change for the better and I fear that I’m getting ready to fall right back to where it once was. Last night at the volleyball game it hit again for the four time this week. Maybe I’m stressed and I don’t know it. I do have a lot going on right now. Cheer has been a little overwhelming with Nationals coming up and I have no idea what I’m doing when I graduate. But really, that isn’t something that should trigger this to happen. I guess my biggest fear is that I will start to loss more and at this point I don’t really have anything to lose. My first reaction is to run to those that helped me though this last year, but some of those people I can’t run to anymore which makes it even harder at times. I guess, in a since, it’s a good thing because it makes me run to God first. I know that God is good, He is the great Physician and His healing hand is over me. I just pray that my heart and my head will connect together because my fears are starting to overwhelm me.


RobinDayle said...

I think you're stressed.

Please please please sleep or relax or read or pray or laugh or do anything else to keep yourself from being stressed. There's no point to stress (see me? I just don't do it...stress is over-rated).

You are only 22...that's young. Don't stress.

Love you.

RobinDayle said...

Oh, and stay positive. I know this can be difficult for you...but do it. :-)

BGJ said...

this is the blog you were telling me about tonight on the phone. but now u know that i'm always here to listen! : )